even tho its still the holidays, i am already starting to freak out. i feel like theres not enough time.

my " Stop the spread of Aids, and Other Diseases " project work is due on the 19th of december, and the freaking 3D model is NOT working out. i have to try something new. ive tried drawing but i cant seem to get it right. my drawing skills have gone rusty over the holidays. screw it.

tons of homework given a month ago, not even touched yet. i dont know why i feel worried about it. even tho i repeatedly told myself it will be okay. somehow i keep taking out all the homework and stare at it countless of times. and i need pens, i need pencils. im in need of everything but i have no cash. ( no actually. i have 70 bucks with me now. i just dont want to spend it. ) maybe i should get twenty bucks from my mom.

i wanted to stay home today because i am tired. k, thats not the main reason. the main reason is im almost broke. yes money issues again. now i really wish school will start and i can save up some cash for myself. not eating in school = more money. ( maybe lose weight too ) hahaha not. so anyway, i have to go meet up a buyer form my blogshop. freaking lazy.

on top of that, n level art preparation. i really need to get started with it soon. the teachers going to kill me when she finds out i havent done anything for it. pictures pictures and more pictures.

urgh. so many things, so little time. i'll definitely be on stress mode when school starts next year. oh and by the way, mom cancelled the trip to indo this year because.. i dont know why. she said it would be better if we went back in march or june next year. best ah. then n level remedial how? guess i will be celebrating christmas then. well thats one thing i can look forward too. even tho i dont get presents anymore.. nevermind. and a month after christmas, chinese new year, hell yeah i cant wait for that one.

speaking about chinese new year, i remembed how i dressed up to celebrate it with my dads side of the family. one word = shit. no seriously. i freaking wore a cheongsam when everybody wore really nice clothes and high heels. apparently i was the only one wearing that. last year i wore this 70's dress. what? its not my fault. i was young, didnt know what i was thinking. my mom chose the dress for me. i didnt know what to wear at all. but this year is going to be totally different :)

im going to start my research now.

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im feeling freaking hot ever since this afternoon. i thought it was just me. but it got windy and i found out that i was having fever. fuck. i hate this feeling. my immune system sucks ever since i joined ndp this year. i realised ive been falling sick more than usual. fana asked me to eat panadol max. i tried it. fever's gone for a while and then it came back again. panadol max doesnt work. somebody cure me.

so i already did my research for my project work. ive finally came out with something presentable. yay. now what its left is the colouring. im thinking about buying a black paper for the background. then i buy neon colours to draw em out. haha i sound so ambitious.

trip to sentosa this sat is cancelled ): cos natasha and des cant make it. but its okay. we'll up real soon alright? i miss you girlz.

one more minute till my favourite chinese drama is on. i think i should go off right now. goodnight.

i miss you <3.