haiyah!

" the higher your hopes, the farther you can fall if they don't happen. be realistic "

am currently in cousins crib.

so the new year celebration with familys been great. headed to bishan on new years eve for our annual reunion dinner. had steamboat. exactly a year since i had that for dinner. went home around midnight.. or was it? i forgot. woke up early the next morning to get ready. afterwhich, we head our way to hougang.

shook hands with great grandmum and everybody else in the household. get to see some new people in the family. one of my lao gu's came up to me and said..

lao gu : ivy, ni wei she me hen hei? aiyo.

and then i go -___-

then another of my lao gu's came up to me and asked me the same thing.

and then i go -___-"

stayed at hougang till 6. afterwhich, took dads car and head back to bishan again. spent the rest of my night playing ban luck. ( now i bet people will start asking me what the hell is ban luck ) haha. got back home around midnight. got a collection of ten hongbaos. just ten.

so anyway, i got up early today yet again. i dont know why i always get up early during the holidays. maybe my aching back is the cause of it. i was tossing and turning, still felt restless. closed my eyes for a little while and woke up at 5. closed my eyes again and got up at 8. checked my mails and played facebook for a while before i switched off the com.

here i am blogging this alone in a room.. seems pretty scary. the white/transparent curtains blowing in a direction. i cant hear anything else but the song im currently playing from electrico. haha yah that was crap. just wanted to kill my time by typing nonsensical stuff.

oh i almost forgot. i went down to 7 eleven today to get my favourite jacobs biscuits. i went to the 7 eleven next to ntuc. i walked into the 7 eleven to hear the cashier shouting at a guy for no particular reason at all. okay maybe there was. like i was saying, the cashier was shouting at a guy. so i went in and looked at the cashier and i thought i saw..

he freaking looks exactly like the guy i saw in mustafa centre. the moment i saw him, i went out right away. didnt even bother to have a look at the biscuits section. i was breathless ( yes, yet again ) how come i seem to see someone who looks like him everywhere. there must be something wrong with me. eh no wait, there is something wrong with me. im seeing things ( in this case, seeing people ). this is a nightmare. haha okay am just exaggerating this part.

but it really did scared the hell out of me.

and what the hell i just got to know i cant enter the school tomorrow cos i happened to lost my handbook last friday. now i have write my name down. worst comes to worst = detention. speaking of which i just remembered i have to stay back in school tomorrow till 4 pm for extra MLB lesson. and what the hell. i have bio test tomorrow and i completely forgot about it. thank you dear fatheha for reminding me. stress ah stress. haiya!

ive already done part of my art preparations..

jeez, not like its going to help me feel better or anything.

well i thought saying that would but it doesnt seem to be working.

oh well.

look how long this entry is.

i hafta stop typing and start searching for my handbook.

but i cant search for it now cos im not at home right now.

haha okay this time i really hafta stop typing.

goodnight.