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i had ptm in school yesterday...

and my results suck.

made my way to school at 6 and went up to the hall to see.. him sitting down with his parents with Mr. Sidek. well my heart was beating like crazy the moment i see him there. wonder what that means.. oh well.

so we waited for Mr. Sidek to finish whatever he wanted to say. i thought he was going to end it fast because we were waiting for quite awhile already. but no he had to go on for another 30 minutes. yeah 30 freaking minutes. okay then it was my turn. he first started off with what kinda person i am ( in school ).

" Stephanie is erm.. a good girl. First thing first, her attendance, solid. * thumbs up * She did not absent herself even for a day, and she was never late. Second thing is, she has the will to study even more this year. Last year her class was like a rubbish dump. Dont even bother to study, the class so full of litter. But this year her class is * thumbs up * This year her class is much more better in terms of keeping the class clean and their attitude. When i get into the class, they will sure to be ever ready. Books on the table, the classroom always clean. Correct or not Stephanie? "

i just nodded my head and smiled to myself because what he said in the last few sentences is FAKE. why? because he scolds and shouts whenever he enters my class, saying, " Where are your books! What are you supposed to do when you see a teacher coming in! Check whether they are any litter around your area! You all cant even think about simple things like this! 4n1 can do better than this. This even my own form class cant even pass up their files. Do you know how embrassed am i now?! " hell yeah, we got that everyday. so much for " but this year her class is * thumbs up * "

and then he said i am the type of the person who learns faster by memorizing and that i was a visual person. " Last year, she was only able to give a paragraph for her social studies and her geography. But this year, she managed to expand her ideas. From writing arugumentative essays and so on. But one thing about her is that she has short attention span. She likes to socialize. Right Stephanie? She only can concentrate for 20 minutes or so and she goes on doing her things. "

jangan nak tipu sia, Sidek. you were repeating everything all over again when you know the class needs time to study for the geo test you were going to give us the next period. so i chose not to listen to you and started studying geo on my own. and then you tell me i have short attention span. and oh he said this " Stephanie bestfriend is Number one. Right Stephanie? " then i said, " huh? " " Her bestfriend is Wan Suziana. Wan right? means Number one la. Right? Haha. " then i went like " err.. * smile * " what the hell. im sure suz is going to blow up when she sees this.

so after that he asked me this, " you like soya bean right? " then i went like " huh how you know! " he smiled and continued talking. weird. at the end of the session he asked me " so what i said about your class earlier on is true right? " i answered with a simple yes and guess what he said? " Huh! Correct?! * smile * " Obviously he was trying to say something there.

so i got 53% over a hundred for the whole of term 1. got to know that i have to come back during the school holidays to study till 4 everyday. so much for holidays.. damn i gotta stop coming online so often and playing facebook.

and oh

im thinking of straigtening my hair again. im tired of curls already

( i only had it for 4 months )

should i or should i not.