breathe

good morning bloggers!

( when its actually 11.05 pm at night )

short update before i go off to study.

todays a little bit different i must say.

things are turning topsy turvy. or lets just say we messed things up.

maybe we did misunderstand you along the way. i dont even know the reason why we're not talking anymore. and i am definitely not okay with it, much less pretending everything will be alright. i do want things to be alright between us all, and i am going to help no matter how much it takes. i'll just do what i can do. it's not that we dont want to talk to you guys, but i gotta admit that we're the type of people who looks at how their mood is like before we go and talk to em. what if you look freaking annoyed and i chose to talk to you of all times? wouldnt you get frustrated then when i open up such a topic that could really trigger something in you. i wouldnt want to feel bad. i wouldnt want to end up saying sorry. i just want to make things right. at least, back to the old us. when we would laugh just about everything and that we would call us names to each other and make a joke out if it.

everything here and now seems different because i dont know, maybe the perception of us all have changed. try asking another party, they would blame it on the other one and vice versa. i just want all of us to sit down, talk things out and stop holding grudges towards one another. wouldnt it be happier that way rather than cursing and feeling unsatisfied the moment you see her/him. its our last year together, we might never get to see each other again. lets just make it this right.

hopefully things will get better in the days to come.

oh and i got my psp back again. alive this time round which means! more grand theft auto hell yeah. hahaha. my eyes are tired. i need to get some sleep.

goodnight.