ditch the last post. no doubt i was being emotional. some family matters shit thingy.
ah im so lazy to go through that all over again.
today seems like a bad day.
my mood in school wasnt asgood as before the day started.
the day started out just fine but i started to feel a little,
how do i say this?
different right after ( or is it before? ) recess.
i dont know.
i dont even wanna know myself..
whatever it is.
i just hope i'll stop feeling this way towards my own friend.
suz should know what im talking about here.
and shes the only know who knows what im talking about.
ah whatever.
i dont wanna talk about it, i dont wanna notice everything that happen everyday anymore.
seems to hurt me deeper,
now deeper every single day.
but at the same time i feel like i used to it,
and that i shouldnt feel this way to avoid anymore fights.
ah this is bull shit.
im typing shit here and i bet not one of you understands what im trying to say.
im just hoping things will stop one day,
without having me to point things out.
moving along, i had my parent teacher meeting today.
well i passed 3 subjects and got a total of 24 points for all of my 6 subjects.
cb ah. and i scored 5 for my m.s.g when im supposed to score a 4.3
god i suck.
but sidek helped me alot by explaning everything to mom and dad.
no seriously he did. he explained why i got lower grades and stuff
and my mom didnt say anything at all.
weirdest thing is, my dad didnt say anything either.
well maybe he just cnt be bothered anymore.
having family problems at home these few days.
lately my home doesnt feel like a home
it feels exactly like a cell, even though i dont know how it feels like being in a cell,
i feel trapped. somehow unable to breathe and let it all go.
some of you must be thinking, this girl is stressed out.
well thats where your wrong. im not stressed out.
im not anywhere near stress.
but somehow i just feel ...
well what dya know,
i dont even know what i feel like right now.
maybe im just sleepy.
and bf, please cheer up. i hope you'll be okay by tomorrow. always remember that we, both you and me will go through that togethr. you fail, i fail too. if you dont have the confidence to do anything right now, then i will do anything to motivate you. cheer up love, its not the end of the world yet. just know that i am here for you. whenever, whereever.
i think ive typed quite enough right here.
couldnt take the pressre any longer.
my eyes are starting to hurt a little now.
goodnight, dear readers.
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