June 29, 2009

hello young world
it's 7.45 pm on a monday night..

ah, monday..

today isn't just any monday
today i'm experiencing monday bluez as well as moodswings
i hate it when it's the time of the month
when i feel like the weight of the world just on your shoulders
when i feel like anything bad is going to happen any time soon
when i feel like everything around me is annoying the fuck out of me
when i feel like every good thing that has happened turn into bad ones
when i feel like the world is just against me

even the slightest thing ( such as dropping a pencil when you are anxiously doing maths, especially when you got the answer in your head and you can't wait to write em' all down then you find out that your pencil is on the floor ) yeah even that annoys the hell out of me.

it's like a combination of feelings added up all together. insecurity, thinking too much, paranoid, annoyed, irritated, moodless, furious, upset and all the other emotions you wouldn't want to feel.
god i seriously hate it when it's the time of the month.

today is also the first day of schoool after the june holidays. pfft so much for first day of school. it totally suck. i woke up with a severe headache. i woke up at 5 am and i couldn't get out of the bed. i laid down for a while and forced myself out. i thought the damned headache will ease alittle after i took my bath. well it didn't. then i missed my bus because i closed my eyes to rest. i swear i was almost falling asleep.

everything's good until it was recess time when we had to assemble to the hall for dunno what shit. we waited for another god damned hour for our recess. 4n2 only got to buy food at 12.30. i was so hungry then. only to find out that what i wanted to eat is finished and all i ate was a freaking red bean bun for my lunch -.-'

i swear i didn't have any mood throughout the day. then when i got home, i read something on a website that really made my blood boil. well not literally but you get what i mean. yeah.

i fucking hate it when people criticise someone else when they, themselves know that they are one too. easier to say, don't call people obese when YOU KNOW YOU ARE OBESE TOO. ouh and let me see, if she has a body surface area of a hundred, then what is yours? sure, you may look a whole lot thinner on the top but err... * looks at ______ * ( you fill in the blanks. theres no correct or wrong answer to it though )

oh god no.
do I see a body surface area of a 1000?

and mind you, i am talking general here not anybody in particular. and if you happen to feel like it's you, then it is you. if you happen to think that it's not, then you are not. as simple as that.

see how annoyed i am right now. so i hereby apologise to those whom i have showed my attitude towards to. especially love when he was already in the movie theatre and he didn't want to tell me because he wanted to be t here for me to listen to my complains and how bad my day was. thank you love, i appreciate you doing that.

god im getting annoyed by the minute. i gotta stop before i explode anytime soon ( okay i exaggerated a little, so what )

gdnite and thnks.

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