typical

it's 7.33 pm on a typical tuesday night. hot weather, not a single interesting programme on tv, play psp, use the com...

well it wasnt like any other day for me. my emotions unstable, all over the place. a minute i'm sad, a minute im happy, a minute im worried and then the next just feeling normal.

i didnt want to tell this to anyone. because i'll be labelled crazy if i did. but i already typed it here i guess you all know it already. im not going through any moodswings thats for sure. i thought i was the only one who ever felt this way. yeah the only one.

sitting in the park along this afternoon helped me to calm down a little. okay maybe not a little, i'd say my heart literally felt empty. no more weight or worries inside of this silly heart. no more thoughts i can think of. no more worries i can worry about. no more, nothing. it was just me, myself, alone. ( plus the songs in my handphone. the tracks did a great job though. )

maybe i shall go the park more often when somethings troubling me.

so anyway, i have english remedial in school tomorrow at 8. and then at 9 i have art until 5. this will continue on till friday. and this sucks. i'll be leaving on monday, the 8th of june. i wouldnt have enough time to spend with boyfriend then. i hope i can go out on sunday afternoon to spend the time together before i leave sg. im just afraid he'll be busy when i am free on the day itself.

you know all of a sudden,
i just feel like...
eating.
hey no wait, i feel like playing my harvest moon in the psp.
but ive already played it the whole afternoon.

shit. i dont have anything to do right now. oh and btw, mums thinking of switching to prepaid. cos she said she can't stand my bills anymore. most probably changing after the june holidays.
cb la tomorrow got english i so lazy wanna come but must come if not parents will be called and then the teacher will nag here nag there make me sianzzzz only. i dont like this at all. and i repeat AT ALL. hopefully friday doesnt repeat itself again.

you know i hate those people who did someone wrong to their love ones, hurt their love ones and saw them cry on the spot and pretended to ask what went wrong, why are they crying and such. cut the act and be straight to the point. you very well know what you did that hurt her, right infront of her eyes, and you dare to even come over to her and ask whats wrong. what? your stupid or something huh? youve got brains you dont need anybody to tell you what you did wrong. come on its pretty obvious here and I KNOW you know what you did. you give that certain look on your face when you ask whats wrong. pathetic. people like these pisses me off so fucking much. ( besides people who are sarcastic ). hypocrites. you dont like em, you say it. you dont have to put on an act infront of em and pretend nothing happened -.- good job, brother.