June 16, 2009

well hello to singapore.
it is 7.02 pm on a tuesday.
i am back from the trip from home and here i am blogging once again.
didn't manage to upload any pictures up here now because im currently using my laptop.
the images are all in the desktop.
so i shall update this blog with pictures i have taken tomorrow.

its only been a week and i already felt as if i have been missing out on alot.
and although it sucks to feel how different people around you is treating you right now,
i guess its natural. cos its only normal to not know what the others are talking about, and you remain silent most of the time thinking about what the hell are they talking how come i dont know about it and then you thought back and you say " oh, right. i wasnt here for quite a while. " you must be thinking that i am refering to somebody here, but no i am not. its just the fact that i feel, well, pretty much missing out on things. a whole lot of things.

i woke up this morning feeling so different today. i was wondering why the hell i was feeling this way. maybe it is just my sensitive feelings and neverending thoughts about.. err.. lets just say my thoughts are kinda negative. thinking of the bad instead of the good. and if you know me, you will understand that i am that kind of person who thinks too much. it's already the 16th of june and i have not started with ANY of my homework. whats worse, whenever i tried to study my mind couldn't concentrate. i found myself reading the same paragraph all over again. i just couldnt sit still. and this led me to feel so useless.

i got so annoyed with myself i forced myself to type out a composition for my english homework. and i have done it. i dont feel any better. still very much the same. basically to say i dont have the mood to do anything here. i dont feel like eating, i dont feel like studying, i dont feel like doing anything. and i dont even know why i am feeling this way.

maybe it is just part of my moodswings. because it's almost the 19th of the month. sorry to thos i hve showed my attitude at. i just couldnt help it. i choose to not tell this to anybody because i think id rather use blogger. at least it doesnt say anything back. 

i am so fucking lazy to start school. the same bus, the same time, the same subjects and the same place every single day. i wake up the same time, do the same thing every morning. and im getting sick of it. why wouldnt holidays last a little bit longer. school reopens and the prelims is already going to start. god i am fucking sick of everything right now.

oh god no

i STILL dont have the mood to do anything. 
and i have this fucking huge mosquito bite on my stomach that hurts so bad right now.
shit.

okay now i really really dont have any mood.
goodnight.




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