boy, no matter how many times i lied to everybody that i don't miss you, i know i still can't lie to myself..
you know i miss you so..
every night i dream of our times together, i just cant keep you out of my mind.
if it's freedom you want then i'll let you go
just so you know that i'm not giving up until you do so
you know how much this girl here loves you


where'd you go,
i miss you so.


come home soon..


/edited @ 8.06 p.m











i was viewing my album under Nikon D60 and realised how much i miss taking pictures. ( not that i am calling myself a professional photographer ) i just like the pictures i take. These pictures were taken months ago. Feels like taking my camera and taking pictures again but i can't because first of all, N's are starting tomorrow. Can't wait for n's to end urghhhh! Afterwhich, it will just be me myself and my camera. oh my god just the thought of it excites me :)

haha yeah maybe boredom is really driving me nuts. Guess what i did the whole day today? Well if you're guessing studying then you are down right wrong! All i did today was laid in bed and switched to different channels for interesting shows. I just finished watching By My Side on channel 8. Yeah, back to chinese dramas again.

yeah anyway, i was walking with my mom to the market at night.. when this old malay lady just walked pass by me, stopped and stared at me. Mom was walking faster than i was because i was too lazy to keep up to her speed. She gave me that look on her face that scares the shit out of me and then i started walking faster. Well this isn't the first time this happened.

2 years ago, i remembered walking in the bus interchange in tampines. I was on the way back home from tampines mall with fana, when this old lady approached me out of a sudden.

Old lady : eh, kenape tak balik? ( why aren't you home? )
Me : Huh?
Old lady : kenape tak balik, sudah dekat mahgrib. ( why aren't you home, it's almost night time)
Me : Huh? Saye nak balik ni. ( huh? i'm on my way home now )
Old lady : Apa khabar sama mak awak? ( How is your mother?)
Me : Uhh.... baik. Cik, saye balik dulu ye. ( uhhh..fine. I go home first kay. )
Old lady : Okay jage baek baek, nak. ( okay take goodcare of yourself )
Me : ( walks off )

Fana was laughing the hell out of herself when she saw me talking to the lady.
Uhhhh... yeah it still scares me

Oh, and i just thought of saying that i am alright, just okay.
hope i will feel this way, hope i maintain this way
whatever it is, i will be prepared for the worst
thanks to those who helped me.
or at least bothered to

it's definitely going to be hard but i guess that is how life is :)

brace yourselves
brace for what's coming in your way

till here.