Dear you,
i'm sorry. i'm sorry for every single thing that i have done. it's my fault, yes it's all my fault. i controlled you from the start, made everything worst, betrayed your trust, killed your heart slowly. i'm sorry, you have no idea how much i am regretting my mistakes right now. i wish i could take back all the words that i have said that hurt you, how i wish i could take all of it back. how i wish i could control my feelings back then and took care of you and your precious heart then. they say you won't know what you've got until you lost them. they're right. as im crying typing this post, i am sure you wouldn't care if i were to die crying for you. i know it's too late saying all of these, but i just thought you should read it. i'm sorry for hurting you everyday. since the day you left my heart has been empty, so empty because i know it won't be the same again. i'm sorry if it bothers you to know that i am still waiting for you, and that i still love you. i'm sorry if my name annoys you, i'm sorry if seeing my face everyday irritates you. i promise i will leave you alone, if that is what you want me to do. i am probably the most stupidest girl ever, having to hurt the perfect guy like you, loving me wholeheartedly. i didn't know every word meant something, i didn't know everything you've done meant something means everything. if i have one wish, just one, i'd wish for you to come back to me. i won't control you anymore, i won't hurt you anymore, i'd make the relationship last as long as eternity. i know i said those words before, but i was still stupid back then. i know it's too late to say all of this, i know you don't want to give this another try. i'm sorry to tell you that my heart just won't say goodbye. some people say it's natural, because you've just broken up with your bf. my heart is just not ready to let go. i still think that we should give this another try, if you could only give me one more chance. call me desperate, call me crazy, call me names, i don't care. but what i feel inside, in this heart, is my love for you. but i have been living my life in regret for the past 13 days and you're still the person i think about everyday. if could turn back time, i'd pause to where we were in the botanical gardens celebrating our 4th month together. holding you so tight until the end of time. if i could turn back time, i'd hold you and never let you go. i know everything i say right now is worthless, and that i know you couldn't care less..
i'd just want you to know that i've realised how much i've hurt you, and realised that i have been pushing you away all these while. i don't think i'd be able to move on, because our memories are are still fresh in my head. i know i used to say all of these words, but i never really meant it because i don't change. but i meant my words this time. i'm sorry.. i'm really sorry. i'd still be here for you even if the sky falls down. i'm sorry for all the blames you've got, i'm sorry for all the hurt i've caused, i'm sorry for all the things i have done to hurt you. i'm sorry for my emotions, i'm sorry for my attitude. i'm sorry for my moodswings. i'm sorry for always being angry. i'm sorry for not appreciating you when i had you. i'm sorry for everything.
i must, and i will change into a better person.
i'm sorry..
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