i am so fucking upset with someone
just so fucking disappointed i don't even want to talk to him/her
i wouldn't even want to see his/her face for now

like i've said a million times
i hate it when things change
and i have to adapt to it
then getting hurt on the process of getting used to everything

i fucking hate this
i hate it when i have to go through things i don't like going through
i hate it when i have to be the only one suffering about everything
when people are just enjoying the fuck out of themselves
when people just don't bother about how i fucking feel because
they don't know how i feel right there and then

i am so fucking lazy to do anything else right now
you tell me a secret and its only between me and you
then i got to know that the party knows it as well
just what am i to you
some kind of spare friend in your life huh

it's always the same thing over and over again
maybe i am holding on to you so tightly that the slightest step hurts
maybe i am depending on you so much that it hurts
well maybe because you mean a whole lot to me
but i don't think i am to you

i was there to comfort you and listen to all your whines
complains and everything you had to say
but where were you when i needed you the most
where the hell were you when i needed someone to just whine about everything
where were you?

it hurts so bad when someone who means everything to you neglects you
and found someone else instead
you feel something is missing
but you've been lying to yourself that its always been there and never been away
then you turn around
to see em not anywhere near you

if thats how you want this to be then so be it
if thats the way it is, then thats the way it is
don't come back to me and say you missed our old times togethr
when we would go out and have fun laughing about everything
because then, i would have left you and your precious friend alone

...

i'm going to mention any names
neither am i going to talk bout this to anybody
and i mean, anybody.
im the type of person who observes things on how long this can go
i'm jst going to keep my mouth shut, till that person finally realises that i am feeling all these while
was because of you