August 2, 2009

so it's been 4 days since i've blogged in saveushere 
didn't have the mood to blog at all 
just hate it when things change,
and we have to try our best to adapt to it 
i hate it, i hate getting hurt on the process to get use to it 
especially when people change 
you'll get hurt countless of times before you get used to it 

or maybe 

you can just knock some sense into the person 
and tell em' not to change.
sometimes people don't even realise that they are changing 
sometimes their love ones keeps quiet and tolerates 
and thats when they step on your head 
when you dont like what you see/hear/feel 
tell em how you really feel.
don't sit back and try to understand why hes doing it when you are actually hurt because of his actions 
don't sit back and watch him do the same mistakes all over again 
don't sit back and let him step on you 

and most importantly, don't give in when you know you are not at fault.
you only say you're sorry when you have done something wrong. 
now if you say sorry, they will think they are right and they will keep doing it again.
is it true or is it true?
well i don't know.
maybe this is just my perception of things.

i hate seeing people change 
it makes me feel so different 
i hate going through things 
and not knowing what to do next 

and then when your heart feels like making things right 
something hinders you and you feel all weak 

sometimes you can give in to things when its not your fault 
but don't give in to every mistake that he does 
because you will end up packing your bags 
and then leave 

hmm...
doubt anybody understands what i meant 
oh well

so anyway, 
i spent my whole saturday in the art room in school 
to dye my cloth 
mdm sahara chose a combination of kingfisher, arabian knight and elephant grey 
for my tie and dye 
i finished dying at 3 
but stayed a little longer till 5
because the others were rushing through their work 
to start dying 
so i helped a little here and there to make it easier 
even helped haidar sew the whole cloth and
did all the pulling 

going over to his place later to help him dye 
after which me and suz will head to the swap and shop flea market 
that is if, we can finish dying the cloth earlier 
i don't know what time the flea ends 
if not, me and suz will head out to far east to get some new tops for me 
hell yeah 

i ordered an acid washed pants from a spree 
and they said 2 weeks max 
its been already 2 weeks now 
and they haven't send the orders yet...
fucking hate it when i have to wait 
i planned to wear it on 7 of august, 
where i have to wear a red colored top 
to celebrate national day in school...

and i have nothing to wear at all 
...
...
...

wtf wtf wtf
i just realised that i have to wear something to match with shoes 
hmm...
alah later then i think la 
make me stress only 


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