desperate

you have no idea how much i really regret hurting your heart. you have no idea how much i really hate myself for hurting you.you have no idea how much i really wanted to stab myself when i realise that everything ended was because of me all along.

i dont want the history to repeat itself anymore.

this time i really want to change, i really want to prove you wrong.

for all those times ive been controlling you and wanting to get your attention,

fuck me. what was i thinking. in this age, we should be enjoying not having the feeling of tied down.

you're laid back and i am impatient.

imma show you that i am patient, and i really really am gonna show you that i really meant my words.

i love you and i don't want anybody else in my life, i just want you.

because my hearts been telling me not to move on.

this time, i will fix this mess I have been creating

right nw, a huge mess.

i will take things slow, i will take everything at your speed.

i will win you back someday and make you fall in love with me again.

i wanna change for the better. i will do anything it takes for you to give me a chance once more.

i will and i must peservere and start everything from scratch.

i will pray to god all the time and pray to god befre i sleep that you will give me a chance.

i will move you and give me another chance.

i'll change my habits, i'll change how i think about things, i'll change how i controlled you, ill change everything. i am doing this all for you even if it takes everything.

i will wait and be there for you even if the sky falls down.

it's my mistake.

i want to repent and show you that i really meant it.

and i won't give up until you are mine once more :)