The end.

18 March 2009 - 17 September 2009

Another day to our 6th monthsary... But i guess it has to end because we can no longer communicate with each other and what's worst, your feelings for me have already faded away a long time ago and you have been lying to yourself and to me, that you are still in love with me. Thank you for all the times we've shared together, for all the times you were there to cheer me up. For all the times you wiped my tears, for all the times you hugged me untill i stopped crying. For all the times you told me you loved me, for all the time trying so hard to love me the way you used to.

Just so you know, i did everything for you. Everything i do, i had you in my mind. Even if i were to a buy a new bag for myself, i would think " Would i look good in this? " You mean so much to me, but i guess it's nothing now. When you're sick i'd want to bring you to the doctors and stay by your side. Whip up something for you to eat, take medications for you and stay by your side. Change the towel on your forehead and replace it with a new one. I'll stay by your side until you are well.

When you're down, i'd want to be the number one person who makes you smile. The number one person you would look forward to see, to hear. The number one person you would come to. But i know you can't force love, and if you are happier now, without me, then i guess i should et you be free. It hurts, it hurts so bad right now that i am crying. But it's okay, let me suffer, because as long as you are happy, i'm happy. All the best in your life, i am sure you will find someone so much better than me. Thank you for giving me another chance to love you again, And thank you for ending this before the n levels, because i wouldn't be able to pass my n levels because i can't study at all. Now that i am not hanging on to anything any longer, i should just move on with life. Back to where i was.

You had my heart, love.

And this would be the last post about you, about us.

Goodnight.